Tis the season... TO FREAK OUT! aka Joyeux Noel on speed.

I think I know why they call it the loneliest time of the year... it sure is disheartening, that's for sure. I have no idea what it is about this time of year that makes one think of everything that is lacking in their life but it's ridiculous. Who's idea was it to make people depressed/lonely during the most miserable season of the year? I bet whomever came up with the idea also likes the idea of punching kittens and drowning puppies, too.

It's not THAT bad, I guess. I stopped taking to Oliver... it just wasn't even worth wasting my effort. I'm over jumping through hoops to get his attention, he can find someone else to do that. I'm starting to get a clearer idea of what's going to happen in my future as far as moving to Calgary and going to school there are concerned. Still a few kinks in the time line to flatten out, but it's moving along. I'm just having problems wrapping my head around the idea of living in the same city as Rupert and I can't decide whether or not that is a good idea or not. I know I'm not moving there FOR him, but I don't want to move there and then have my reasons and plans for moving there changed or compromised because of being around him. He's entered my mind more than a few times lately and I can't say that my feelings for him have ever really wavered, and I can see how I could get hurt again very easily if things took a few wrong turns. I wouldn't want something like that to affect my schooling. At any rate, SAIT looks like a pretty promising choice as far as schools go... I have to look at other schools and see what web design classes they have and whatnot. Good ol' school hunts.

I am excited to move to Calgary for school, but also because I see it as an opportunity to meet new people. I'm sorry Vancouver, but I'm sick of walking down the street and feeling negative energy from everyone, or running into people I used to be friends with but no longer associate with. Everyone here is so in their own little worlds and doesn't care about anyone else. It's stupid. It doesn't hurt to be nice for no reason sometimes, guys. Yes, EVEN to strangers and people who may not necessarily be in your close personal circle of friends. OMG. I already have a friend in Cowtown. Ashley and I are going to be the cutest nerdiest friends ever.

I'm also not working right now, which sucks because I really need money for a lot of things: dentistry, tattoo, school, debt, moving costs, etc. etc. etc. I need to pay for all of that, and I also need to save up a reasonable amount of money with which to move to Calgary. I have no idea how much that will cost. I'm thinking I will probably sell anything that can't be carried on or easily shipped out there. So that will save me some money on moving costs, but I will also need to have a bit of money in that budget to buy some furniture (like a bed) when I get there. This would be a PRIME time for some mystery rich family member of mine to die and leave me millions of dollars. PRIME.






.....still prime?



damn.